Fear...

FEAR... yes am sure you've heard all sorts of meanings...but one i really liked is False Expectations Appearing Real...
Fear will make you do things and sometimes prevents you from doing anything. People are afraid of many different things, heights, darkness, love and many other things. If you are afraid of heights then you'll only enjoy being on the ground floor, you cant fix the light bulb cause its more than 2 feet off the ground and well, you never discover roof top views like the top of KICC (staying true to the kenyan in me) , Eiffel tower, or just your balcony. Some say its trying to get closer to God when you love raised places, but i think its just that moment when everything else feels small and manageable like a tiny maze...but also its about the beauty...  how it all comes together as a whole and not just pieces..... and well fear takes that away from you..

Top of KICC you see all on Nairobi.. amazing:)

But even beyond the fear of heights there is the fear of life. Yes being afraid to live... you spend all your life shielding the world out and yourself in. You don't go out with your friends just in case you get in trouble, (you think of all crazy scenarios....what ifs ... car crash, getting mugged, getting rained on) so all you do is lock yourself away in your house. But think about it, you can still get trouble in your house, so really you ain't that safe.
You are afraid of  trying new things so you never join a sport, you never go swimming in a river or kayaking , and well you never get the adrenaline rush of a crazy roller coaster. You never discover your talent in drama and music cause you're afraid of messing up..  so you dnt even try. You admire great jobs but you're afraid of wanting them cause you dnt think you could be that great. You push everyone away because the world is big and mean and is out to get you.

But you also miss out on one thing that is worth living for.. LOVE you don't allow people in.... so you never get to know someone and love them for who they are. Yes people will hurt you, and most people have had terrible experiences but the best thing about love, real love .. it never runs out. So no matter how much people hurt you, you'll always have more to give unless you afraid to even try.

So am sure you all thinking where is this going ... well i just thought i'd point out that life is worth living and living fully... yes you've heard it many times but am just saying it is true... Fear will cripple you and hold you back from the person you where created to be and you know... a book might tell you how things are done but a friend will show you... you learn so much from embracing each day as it comes and it also helps you understand that you're not the only one going through issues.

Damita sings "Lord you've been mighty good to me,   You keep me from dangers seen and unseen " ..... when you realize that you cannot predict the future... you can't even protect yourself from the little things that come your way.. then you understand that all you can do is live for God cause only He knows, and only He is worthy of it all.... and then... at that point, fear is pointless...

Sounds like i got everything figured out huh? but no fear still threatens to take my life away, rob me of precious moments and great opportunities, but with God am able to overcome... daily refusing to let anything hold me back... Perfect love, drives out fear...and there ain't any love as perfect as God's love and the more you receive it the more you'll wanna share it. Question is, are you willing to?
To risk appearing a fool for the gospel?

I say live... like really live... get up everyday and dare to live..love with all your heart,  it'll be hard but its worth it ... remember diamonds are just pieces of coal after alot of pressure and rubbing and polishing...so what do you wanna be? a piece of coal or a precious diamond ....
This is a poem i love enjoy:

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool

To weep is to risk appearing sentimental

To reach out to others is to risk involvement

To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self

To place your ideas, your dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss

To love is to risk not being loved in return

To live is to risk dying

To hope is to risk despair

To try is to risk failure

But risks must be taken,

because the greatest hazard in life is to do nothing.

The person who risks nothing,

does nothing, has nothing, and is nothing.

They may avoid suffering and sorrow,

but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.

Chained by their attitudes, they are a slave,

they forfeited their freedom.

Only the person who risks can be free... 

Choice is yours...Be blessed :)))

I will fight for you...

Weddings... I love them.... the flowers, the amazing colors..(most times).., the joy in everyone's face, the nervous  planners pulling out their hair .praying for all to go well... the anticipation.... and despite the fact that there has been tonnes of weddings (every week to be precise) there is always a unique aspect to each one.... its always a different couple.... a unique story.. a pledge of love... a hope for some that its possible,.... a reminder to those who forgot..... every wedding is a dream come true...


so question is where does the magic go to? What happens after the decorations come down and its just the two of you remaining... in my short life i have attended wedding of amazing couples.. love birds... matches that seemed to be divinely decided, from the beginning of time... but i have also watched the same couples crumble... talk ill of each other to every ear willing to listen.. so much that at some point, i really considered staying single all my life.. buy me a great house and a big dog and forget about men....
But no worries that ain't gonna happen... i want a full life of chasing my kids in the house and waiting on my hubby and loving him with all i am..I digress... sorry as i was saying... what happens to the love?


I thought marriage was just cursed... that if you got married young, your marriage was doomed to fail... but with time i have come to realize that its not that the couple was not meant to be... its that they were not willing to fight for it... I have spoken to some of my married friends and attended a couple of very informative bridal showers (that doesn't make me an expert but anyhu ...) and I have drawn one common conclusion... Married life is not a bed of roses...(go figure huh?) but wait, it is...its just that roses do have thorns, and i guess those are what no one warns us about...You meet an amazing man/woman. You love them through everything...the unreplied texts, the flirting with your friends, the occasional outburst , the crazy outfit, the bad hair day, the crazy mother, the jealous Ex, the annoying habit .... you love them despite all this because to you, she/he is worth it.. fast forward a few years, the ring comes the amazing wedding follows... then what? you declare "job done?"... exit prince charming and enter Mr. bossy... all of a sudden, you can't stand that he din't reply your text... you don't like how she does her hair... suddenly you think she should loose weight or he should start playing an instrument... you forget to continue loving despite the faults.. Am not saying that you shouldn't improve each other or agree to be improved.... am saying it shouldn't matter... you loved her as she was....you loved her laugh, her character, and decided that she was the one... you tolerated his habits, cleaned after him all the time and you did accept the ring...well then you better be ready to stick by him...


Yes there are so many buts and ifs.... think about it... if every couple got married for the right reasons and each of them vows to fight for their love.... then this marriage craziness would end.. (or at least reduce drastically...)
Warren Barfield  sings..Love is not a fight.. but is something worth fighting for..but how many would go against their family, jobs because they trust their spouse has their best interest at heart? If you not ready to fight for him... don't accept his ring... save yourselves some trouble, and money and of course time and end it before its too late...#tough love...


But i must say cheers to all the successful couples Rock on!!! You are proof that marriage can work..
  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwK73QbNPKo

By  Shikzzz

The Plane Ride

I board a plane from Orlando and soon, it's time to take off.
the weather is terrible, rain all over, dark skies, lightning all around and as we go higher and higher, the rain pours more and more...
The plane swings from side to side, and as many know am not a fun of planes floating from side to side...i love SAFETY. my natural judgement would have been to turn back and wait for the rains to die down. like i said, i love my life.
The higher the plane rises, the stronger the wind blows and soon we can barely see the outside. surrounded by a huge dark cloud, and at the risk of a lightning striking right there. and still this pilot aint doin anything.....by now i have definitely said a couple of prayers and closed my eyes...
BUT then... all goes calm. the rain stops and the plane settles. above all the rain and chaos down below, is the sun.... i have yet to see beauty beyond this..!! Yu should have seen me smiling, i think the guy next to me thought i was loosing it. nway thats besides the point...
.. back to the story...
i sat and thought the whole way through... sometimes our lives are like those planes, being tossed and turned from side to side not really knowing what will happen. from breakups, to lost jobs, from loosing you loved one, to jus aother lousy monday at the office or class. but what matters is what you do about it.you can decide to stay down and get rained on and scream at the world or you can kip pushing through. because on the other side is a bright sun, a cool breeze and its kinda fun to know that you made through, and watch the clouds below you....
Also.. the pilot is key, if i was in that cockpit, i dnt know what would have happened but do know one thing, Am glad i wasn't!!!. i gave my life to Christ. the journey may get bumpy but He knows that on the other side there is so much more so all i need to do is enjoy the ride. It may be bumpy and crazy and sometimes seem impossible but hey, at least He's there with you and will get you through.

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”